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Because we speak a language nobody else can understand.

Sometimes we make words so complicated even our tongues twist speaking them.

But what matters is the barriers we're building.

People don't understand us.

Isn't that the most important?

We need to be different.

The only constant in life is change.

세상아 보거라 이기게 해다오 태양아 뜨거라 내게 힘을 다오
운명아 듣거라 길을 막지 마오 그녀를 꼭 지킬게

My favorite line in Last Romeo. This song got me through the hectic day today.
Seriously its so cool how Infinite always manages to put like "traditional korean" in the lyrics that is representative of the Korean culture like from their Chaser song also.

Today is such a tiring day it was just project project Japanese Presentation preparation all the way. Not to mention I had CCA. Today's combined was alright I guess. We changed a new conductor ): Pretty sad Mr Cheng left because of some issues with the stingy school. The new conductor was pretty strict but he kind of reminded me of how Mr Tang used to conduct. He was strict but behind the strict was some sense of tolerance. He knew we just picked up the song so we basically sucked at playing. I just couldn't get this part right because the rhythm was super weird ): I  guess I need more practice but MSTs are coming I don't have the time... Hopefully with a new conductor we manage to pick up speed on learning the songs and have like a different variety of songs to play. I can feel that I can actually get the notes right its just that I don't dare to blow the high notes so some funny sound comes out. I'll practice harder after MST!!

Ahh strangely the new conductor reminds me of Jun Sung Ahn so I am majorly weirded out. I think its the glasses but omg idek.

Okay I better sleep now I'm left with only 5 hours before I have to wake up tomorrow and I cannot afford to be late for family law or else 1.0 GPA. Nights~

Don't mind me.

I really cannot understand why people think like that.
Something so strong has been made fragile with all those corrosive thoughts.
Everyone breaks into pieces just with the slightest touch.

Sometimes I get so angry with the twistedness of this world.

It's late and I need to go to bed.

Put out the flames for I am burning in this fire.

These fumes are suffocating and I fear my insides are turning grey.

Drown me in water and flush my insides clean.

Drench me in alcohol and ignite the torch.

Delete your existence.

Erase the memories.

It was never meant to be. 

Must it be like this every time?

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Slept for like 15 hours yesterday now I can't sleep and work tomorrow sigh.