Mentally and physically worn out.

Today was such a long day. And I'm typing all of this in my extremely exhausted state of mind so I hope I dont make any dumb mistakes.

In the morning I had to go to school for a lecture from 10 to 12. It was really boring and I fell asleep as always ): the always suay me always falls asleep at important parts of the lectures and wakes up during the breaks -.- always wrong timing. Sigh. After the lecture I went out with liyuan~ Walked long and tirelessly at orchard. Wanted to go to scape but couldn't find it. (I noob) Wanted to watch a movie but the one we really wanted to watch fully booked. (I suay.) After all who can resist the charms of Park Ki Woong,Kim Soo Hyun and Lee Hyun Woo all in one movie. Wanted to cycle but it was just dark and scary when we reached the BBQ area. (I scared.) Basically all our plans got changed hahaha especially the studying part. It's really funny how we always end up window shopping instead of studying.

The BBQ was not too bad. We stuffed ourselves like hobos that haven't eaten in days and it was the most filled up I've felt after all the bbqs I've gone to in my life. It was really late after everything cos I stayed till the end. (I always do lol.) it was really nice seeing some of the guides again but It was still awkward I guess. But basically I tried my best to talk to everyone so... :) Truthfully I was proud that I could remember the guides cheer after a year of so of not doing it. I hope this cheer goes down all the way to like 10 years later. No particular reason but it's just pretty cool, isnt it! 

Today made me think about a couple of things. I guess coincidences happen but when it happens too often it makes me think whether it happens for a reason. All my thoughts are just messed up again because of today. I guess I might just be delving too deep into it and I should probably move on but it's kind of hard. I guess it's not really surprising when coincidences just happen cos Singapore is really such a small place. I wonder if you noticed but the possibility is really small that you actually did in the masses of people that we brush past by everyday. Well nobody might really understand what the heck I'm referring to in this paragraph but lol that's the point. If it was too obvious, people might start asking. And I don't like responding ): it's personal stuff and it's just frustrating and hard to explain so I'll just keep it between me and myself. What's the point of then putting this on the blog. I write what I like so I'm sorry if I just left you hanging. 

But who reads this shit anyway. I'm really curious.

Maybe I'm better off being a person like this.I get worried I might appear to people as a sadistic person or psycho but everyone can do what they want and so can I. It should be like my form of defence mechanism that is able to protect me. It's really good I'd admit cos it's really not easy to hurt me. And I don't care about people that judge me when man I don't even know who the heck you are.

I realised my paragraphs are really random and don't link well to each other. My thoughts are really broken up. Have to work on my flow of ideas haha. It's real late now lol like 3am and I better sleep before I die of major fatigue.

Ok I really should say some happy things about Infinite's new comeback! I liked the album ESP going to you hahahaha cos the tune is really catchy. I just like songs which have happy tunes but are really sad. Maybe there's something wrong with me. But I really do. Like Infinite's Amazing & Can U Smile. This album was really infinite. It was like I saw their debut style of music in this album for their title track. And their 80s style in inception. Good memories. It's been 3 years and I'm proud of of much they've developed as a team.

I'd like to end off here so bye. I should really update my fanfic. Pretty sure I'm left with not many subscribers now since I haven't updated for 3 months. School has been hell, contrary to the belief of people that think poly students have it easy. They can just burn and I'll watch them die.  Gosh I'm so tired now I might just faint. So really, gonna sleep. Like now.

After a short break... I'm back!

Well it's kind of late now. 1:19am to be exact. The time of my blogposts are screwed up I swear. No idea how to fix the time on blogposts so :/ 

Sick for an entire week already... Only stress makes me fall sick. Too many projects too much troubles. I should blame all this on my stupid sleep schedule. Sleeping at 3am everyday for 3 whole weeks. Any person would fall sick I guess.

Felt like blogging today cos most of my projects are basically completed so I have some time on my hands. I'm just really nervous for this first semester cos I felt like I screwed up a lot for my projects. Sometimes I really feel like I'm just too nice. People take advantage of this fact. I keep reminding myself but maybe I just get soft hearted. Sometimes I just get too frustrated and bothered that I learn how not to have any emotions and I just forget everything. Confessions of a scatterbrain. I'll be the perfect author of that book. Losing my ezlink and matriculation card. But thanks to the person who returned my card to me. Seriously super duper grateful!!!! 

Today was law investiture. Kind of reminded me like guides passing out parade minus all the dance performances. The people in law inc look really nice and friendly and all of them looked quite tightly knit. We guides kind of lacked in this area. What hapened to sisterhood? Some conflicts i just didnt expect to happen escalated and now we just dont talk to each other anymore. It was always just cliques and people switching cliques. Too much drama but well thats what you'd expect from a cca full of girls. I hope the BBQ tmr wouldn't be too awkward cos there are really a lot of misunderstandings and I don't know why ): just really uncomfortable getting tangled in this web of awkwardness and unhappiness.

Back on topic~ It was nice seeing some live singing for a change. Coffee break had a performance and most of the class went to support the band. Being there all along supporting their performances, I did feel proud. :) The whole investiture was quite heartwarming. There wasn't many people there and ushering wasn't that hard since there weren't that many people to usher anyways. After that we went for dinner and I just yoloed eating fried stuff and ice cream though I was sick. It's been a week already so just heck man I'm just gonna eat what I like and not give a shit cos anyway it's gonna be the weekends soon so WHOOPEE. 

I'm just really glad for awesome friends I've made so far. They really make me look forward to school and everyday is never dull in school. I feel like such a lucky person and I really do appreciate all I have now.

For now I guess I've sorted out some things in life and I hope things are gonna get better from here.

Well I'm ending this off at 1:50am. And I'll need to catch some sleep cos we have a lecture at 10am tmr and I hope I won't fall asleep during the lecture. Going to do lots of productive stuff tmr like studying and cycling to get my metabolism working cos I haven't been running for the past 3 busy weeks. Goodbye and I hope I get some really great dreams tonight.

Bored as always

Confused whether to be happy for myself or sad for myself. Received results for everything and I'm kind of disappointed ): I shouldn't be too hard on myself... 

Slacking during Pom. Haven't done tutorial work for 2 consecutive weeks so feeling really guilty now D: and I learnt that my MCQ sucks cos I have no luck. I need more luck ): (it rhymes lol)

Goodbye

Old

I guess I couldn't help it. It has always been habitual. I guess I just got that sinking feeling again.

It's always at night that you start thinking and everything hits you all at once.

Sigh.

Maybe something to look forward to will be the new mini/single album infinite is making a comeback with. Spending more money again! Still happy anyways cos spending money is a privilege.

Okay dying of fatigue. It's 2am already contradictory to the dumb time which is always wrong. Blogger is screwed up but I still use it anyway.

Old habits die hard.

Short update

Too tired already I feel giddy and there's this numbing feeling in my head. Going early to school tmr to get some shit done with Joey so I should sleep. Realllllyyyyy needa finish more of CSA lest I fail. So yep  nights and I should get to bed :)

I guess time really heals even the deepest wounds.

New month!

It's July already! We're receiving our MST results soon ); Nervous as hell.

Macroecons results would likely be tmr! Umm no wait today lol cos it's like 1am now. Ominous feeling ):

I have to do well right? No excuses.

Sighpie it sure isn't easy.

Nothing is easy.

I'll get past this. I will.

Well it's july and it's the seventh month of the year! And I reached 777tweets~ lucky or what :D

Addicted to Mcfly's All About You. That song brings good memories. Tom Fletcher's wedding speech was super touching awwwww.

Okay I shall go and sleep. Sleeping really late the past few days so I need to make up for it.