Chaos

Chaos.
There is a constant buzz that is bugging the hell out of me.
Why does it seem like I'm even more stressed with life now that I've graduated?
Everything is going too quickly and this buzzing weighs me down heavier everyday.

Sadness doesn't come when you're busy. It only knocks on your door at 3am in the morning when you're lying on your bed with nothing else to do.

I AM BACK

Absolutely thrilled because i managed to figure out how to change my blogskin!!!
Frankly this is easier to work with compared to my previous template. But its a lot more restrictive because i can't add in random widgets (maybe i just have to figure that out)
Oh well at least i found out how to add in the music player!!

On a happy note, I'm going to Korea againnnnnn. Whewewww so excited but i'm currently lacking in funds (more of money to spend there) and i have no luck in getting a job. Sighh i'll just plan my  itinery first and try to earn some side income by subbing videos :/ Well i guess subbing videos isn't exactly a job since the money i get from it is measly but i enjoy doing it so thats fine. I hope i'll break out of my laziness cycle to blog about this trip because i've been wanting to at least conserve such memories on a writing platform (so i can look fondly upon these memories 10 years later HAHAHA) I seriously hope something exciting happens like us chancing upon infinite in public lol so i get the motivation to post something.

Oh!! I've changed my domain name as well to commemorate my new blog template LOL. (Goodbye to my 'savourhappiness' domain name that i have stayed loyal to since i was 11 *sobs* 9 yearsssss) Honestly i considered whether i should delete my previous posts because its a new beginning but i decided not to because i want to remind myself of all the (weird) immature stuff i used to post *cringes* and feel happy about how much i've matured as a person and how i deal with problems.

Ok i guess its time to go on hiatus so that i can plan for an amazing trip and hopefully get a good-paying job in the meantime.
Goodbye 🙋

1:02am

Oh those words.
They were laced with contempt.
They were emotionless.
They held no thought of others.
I thought you knew.
But you kept your poker face and pretended nothing was wrong.
I thought about those words longer than i should have.
I couldn't help it.
They were echoing in my head.
10 seconds was all it took.
I realised you didn't care.
Only your feelings mattered.

Rants

Disclaimer: Rant post and basically i talk about how pissed off i am at how i am handling life

These few days have been pretty rough because i've got an eye infection/stye (tbh i dont know what it is but its just an irritating swell on my bottom eyelid and IT HURTS) I can't even look at people properly because my eyes have suddenly gone all light sensitive and i unknowingly squint cos of light. (Sorry to all the people i have spoken to without looking at them i didn't mean to come off as rude ): ) It really sucks and  my vision is kind of blocked too cos SMALL ASIAN EYES DAMMIT. Oh right and apparently its the BEST time to actually get swollen eyes because well its HELLDAY (a.k.a 2 tests and 1 submission due day). Not to mention how i had to prep for my tests and submission in this pathetic state of blocked vision and blurred vision when i stare at the computer screen for a period of time. PERFECT.TIMING. >:(
Ah well anyway at least hellday is over and i feel like i can breathe again. Also, i need to get over how bad i screwed up my ACP test because 80% of the time while doing the paper i was in a state of confusion. It also didnt help when beilin and i went all the way to GCV thinking that our test venue was over there????? I swear i almost punched myself when i knew our test venue was ALL THE WAY AT THE SOUTH WING SIDE. It was 5minutes to our test time when we realised and we lost 6 precious minutes of reading time because we got freaking lost ): ): ): Goodbye to my final chance of 4.0 GPA ): ): ): I guess i have to lug that goal to when i enter university (if i even get in).

Well ok at least i still haven't lost my optimism.