Jun 29, 2013

Too young too dumb to realise...

It's never really ever going to go away. 
Its just gonna linger there in the darkest corners and appear again someday sometime somehow... 
I'll forget.


Everything is going to be alright. I really hope so.

Happy things are true life saviours. Never estimate the impact of happiness.
I should really find a cool hobby like maybe ukulele or guitar. Getting some cash would be priority.

No.

Can I delete all these unhappiness. 

I don't want to have feelings anymore can I return them to god? D:

Take it back please I have no use for it anymore.

Can I not have this obligation to give a title cos I'm kind of depressed right now.

I really shouldn't have looked.

Shouldn't have even bothered.

I should just give up.

Maybe it was just wishful thinking on my part.

Too greedy.

T.T

Why am I even feeling depressed.

Just... stop.


(Haihai sunggyu oppa I feel you. We're both in this depression together. Although for different things this feeling isn't that great huh. It's suffocating and it hurts.) #isupportgyu #letspullthroughtgt

It isn't even a joke anymore.

Netizens should all just stop hating and stuff it's not very nice to make a person feel this way.

Jun 25, 2013

All Hail the Haze.

  Well today wasn't that bad. The haze wasn't very bad. Just that there was hail and that was pretty cool but it happened in the west of Singapore and here... It was just as per normal. (Sadly.) Quite glad it rained though cos it isn't that hot now (Maybe its just me hmm...) Pretty sure the rain was brought over "artificially" so I hope nobody went to dance in the rain or run in the rain or do something crazy under this poisonous rain LOL.
  Although I feel like dying now because of the fatigue I am feeling, I need to do work. Productivity is important cos no teacher is gonna watch over you and make sure you learn something. Its a choice you have to make. To do something about your studies or not to do anything at all. Its getting tiring when people tell me I'm smart just because on the surface I look like I work harder then them. Frankly speaking I slack like there's no tomorrow when I'm at home cos no one supervises me at home and I GET DISTRACTED EASILY. I still make it a point to try my best to do my homework and stuff so I don't lag too much behind. (This is why I always end up sleeping at unearthly hours at night.) The next day will just be me whining non-stop about being tired and people will just be like AIYA CONFIRM YOU MUG LIKE CRAZY UNTIL SO LATE RIGHT. And I'll just be too lazy to say anything so I just look at them awkwardly. Okay I'm not saying I'm stupid or what but I still study. Just at the last minute when the test is like the next day.  I'm the last minute kind of person but shit still gets into my brain and I manage to smoke through tests. I also want everyone to do well together cos we all deserve to be on the director's list if we really just work hard and try. We shouldn't have that competitive mindset to kick everyone down and just be the sole champion and mock those that didn't make it. Thats just... egoistic 

Ok that was long. Phew.

Second day of school today. Hahha shit cos I was wearing like this same shirt I wore for CO camp and damn just nice saw so many CO people so like they cfm will be like wondering if I only have 1 shirt in my wardrobe. HELL YEAH I DO. Lol but this shirt is just so snuggly and comfortable and everything cosy and awwww. Anyway I shouldn't really care HAHAHA.
Coincidences. Saw so many people I knew at some point of life today. By definition of "knew" I mean... Maybe I'm already forgotten but well... Life carries on without me. I always felt that people that have the courage to wave or smile at friends or acquaintances they haven't contacted or seen in a long time are really brave. The possibility that the other party has already long forgotten about you exists but that one wave or smile could trigger them to remember you again. Be it good memories or even bad memories. Its still nice to know that they still remember you. And you still exist in their lives in that subtle sense.
Ok to end all of this today was just a really happy day because I saw someone I really wanted to see so yay HAHAHA. Shitty ending but well who cares cos this is my blog and I call the shots here.
Added some colors finally gosh luckily upgrade my internet connection I can finally use my com to blog can I just applaud for brilliant optical fibers now THANK YOU PERSON-WHO-INVENTED-OPTICAL-FIBER. I HAVE COLORS :DDD

Jun 11, 2013

Break


So it's finally break. It's just a short 2 weeks and I'm bombarded with tons of projects. There's no homework but well yeah, projects. And not to mention an online quiz for CSA which is the acronym for computer system applications LOL. I doubt I will do well for that although some miracle happened to me cos I scored full marks for the excel test. Seriously... What got into me. My usual self would have been equivalent to a just pass or maybe even fail. I thought I was Microsoft dumb ): ok that doesn't matter anymore now that I miraculously remember stuff the teacher taught for Microsoft excel. Mid sem tests just ended like last week and MAN I SCREWED THEM. As always T.T Why do I always screw up?!  Okay I shall blog about happy things now. INFINITE IS COMING FOR A CONCERT !*FIREWORKS AND SQUEALING AND CELEBRATORY DANCES* OMG LIKE FINALLY THEY ARE COMING OMG I CAN LIKE DIE HAPPY NOW :D So basically now I have to save up money and hopefully find someone that can go with me so I won't end up like a forever a loner fangirl. I'LL BEGIN WITH GETTING A WEEKEND JOB TO FUEL MY EXCESSIVE SPENDING HABITS. I shall learn to be frugal and save lots of money hahahaha. Ok busy laughing at myself now cos that seems like a far fetched dream. I WILL NEVER BE FRUGAL WHEN THINGS KEEP SUCCESSFULLY SEDUCING ME TO BUY THEM.  My post is so boring hahahaha it's so grey and dull and stuff ): using my iPad to blog restricts me in using my favourite colours. If I actually could change the colour And someone out there knows, please enlighten me! Also I should really update my fanfic HAHAHA its like dying already and I'm already forgetting my story plot OHNOssss.                                                                                                                  THEIR POSTER IS PERFECT I SWEAR.              
AND FREAKING JEALOUS OF THAILAND INSPIRITS OKAY THEIR CONCERT (supposedly) IS LIKE ON MY BIRTHDAY AND I FEEL LIKE SOBBING AND BAWLING COS IF THEY CAME ON MY BDAY IT WOULD BE LIKE THE BEST BIRTHDAY OF MY LIFE SERIOUSLY. There might be a chance I might not be going cos nobody wanna go with me and I can just emo for life. Omg all this sad talk is making me hateful towards the world I should stop like now. 

Ok anyone realised their poster really kinda looks like the "Now you see me" movie poster OMGGG MINDBLOWN.

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