우리오빠생일이야!

It's a long time since I've posted so I'm back! 

It's yeol's birthday today! Time really flies huh. I still remember mass reblogging tumblr wishes last year and even composing messages I doubt Yeol would even see. Ahhh foolish things I do hahaha. This year I finally wished him directly on twitter!!! 3 cheers for courage whoop whoop! I hope he scrolls through all the wishes although I know they're really busy preparing for their concert in hong kong. 

Speaking about their world tour... I didn't get tickets. ): ): ): Even one million sad faces are not enough to express this sadness. Nobody was free to go with me and I don't have cash on hand. Although I'm working now, I only get paid on the 7th of every month so no money yet... Anyways, on the brighter side, I will still get other chances so it's okay. I just hope they have another world tour soon when I have cash in hand hehehe.

I have officially entered the period of exams! Frankly speaking I haven't worked as hard as I did in my secondary school days cos the exams I have now are way different and I have lesser subjects so I guess my workload really cut down by a lot. Recently I've been sleeping at insanely late hours and my hair is dropping and bad stuffs are happening. Insomnia really sucks.

POM IS FINALLY OVER SO I CAN SIGH IN RELIEF. Dumb me went to report to the wrong exam venue today and even sat down at the wrong seat. Gosh how blur can I be... Not to mention the exam venue was so cold I could hear my teeth chattering and was like shivering uncontrollably through out the whole paper. Couldn't recover from that feeling the whole of today and just started to shiver whenever the temperature was a teeny weeny bit less than room temperature. Next time I'll be armed with a thick jacket when I enter the battlefield of exams! I've learnt from my mistakes and will never ever underestimate the cold temperature of the exam venues again. I couldn't even think straight for half of the exam cos I was so bothered about the cold temperature so I guess POM wasn't done well ):   I'll be better prepared for the rest so my As will be closer to reach. 

Gosh I haven't updated my fanfic in such a loooong loooooong time. I hope I still have some of my subscribers left. Probably gonna update it tmr or by next week when all the exams are over and I can enjoy the holidays! I really need someone to motivate me to study for the remaining two papers. I'm afraid I'm acting as though it's the holidays already.

Exams are coming!

Haven't blogged in a while. A lot of things have been happening recently. I have no idea why but I feel much more busier than during the days when I was rushing projects. Is is because of the upcoming exams... This time it's really no joke. Everyone is like studying and I'm still like not even done with notes. I know I'm not the only one but being the one lagging behind is worrying.

Received my grades for 2 subjects so far. Pom and CSA both A. But Pom grade will largely rely on my upcoming exam. This is so nerve wrecking. And I'm getting the jitters because I'll be receiving my grade for lcomm tmr and that will largely affect my gpa. Since I've chosen this path I'll have to do well. It's really frustrating to not be aiming high because I'm scared I'll not meet up to my goals. But aiming too low shortchanges my results. And I'll get satisfied with my results and slack even more. 

So many feelings but I really cannot use a certain word to describe them.

Maybe this is the only place I can vent without offending anyone. (I hope.) Others might be thinking why am I still unsatisfied when i have 2 As but it's really more of me being unsatisfied with my group project grades. We could have really done better, I know. Ahhh forget it. Anyway it's all in the past and I should move on. I cross my fingers and hope for the best tmr for Macroecons and lcomm.

Moving on... We should all treasure the people around us and treasure every goodbye for it may the last. It was such a pity. I wonder why heaven is so cruel. Taking away the life of one cousin, now another... Stupid dengue fever. Stupid mosquitoes. Causing so much grief. The only thing I can do now is pray that they are in a better place instead of going through all that suffering. Shit now I just made myself all sad. ):

I'm gonna start work tomorrow. The pay is pretty good so I hope to save up enough for a last attempt to get infinite's one great step concert tickets. Fancy working when I should be studying. Tbh I kind of regretted agreeing to this 4 day schedule haha. Thursday Friday Saturday Sunday. Wow it's gonna be tough. But imagine the money I'll be earning and how closer I'll be getting to my beloved tickets. Nobody wants to go with me so if I go it will probably be just me myself and infinite. Or should I just force people to go with me hahaha. 

And I really wanted to go for law camp... But it's like not many girls in the class going. ): I guess I'll go next year then, when I get to know more people. Camps are really fun. I know they are.The feeling of achievement you get after the camp is amazing. Hopefully I get a chance to plan camps so people would get a taste of gross factor and nightwalkssss!

Sleeping now cos its like 1am omg and working till like 11pm tmr. Gonna watch weekly idol with infinite guesting tomorrow during break whoopee. :D

Carbon fiber violins

I want one of these babies. It's like electric violin and traditional violin mashed into one. These don't come cheap so saving more money. I need to be more frugal cos I spend too much money on useless stuff like fishballs. Well I should sleep cos I am talking crap and I sound idiotic now. Random post and I'm glad I wasted your time making you read this. But the main point is I want carbon fiber violins cos Lindsey Sterling has one and her cover of imagine dragon's radioactive was breath-taking with such a brilliant violin.

Goodbye. 

August is a new month!

Lots of mixed feelings today but feeling more frustrated because Infinite's concert tickets are up for sale soon (Like technically tmr)  and I poor so I cannot buy. Crying in a corner T.T I am damn sadddd cos I don't know when they're coming again for another concert and nobody wanna go with me this time. Can I just like sulk over all their albums i currently have and get the new destiny album and hope I get the yeol photocard so I feel better. I feel like a whiny kid whining for sweets now :/ instead I'm just whining why nobody wanna go with me and my lack of cash. Tickets please drop from the sky please.

Next frustration will be getting back my case summary tomorrow. I is scared ); very worried and very scared. If I fail, this is the end of my A for lcomm and I can just go slam my head on the wall cos 1.1 is the easiest to score and I screw it all up. Macroecons confirm die then Pom if the teacher marking my paper isn't lenient then I will die too. So I will get like 2.0 gpa and I might as well repeat the whole semester.

Okay today I went running like finally for running club. Went together with Joey, Hillary, Beilin and Elysia  ! My stamina was sucky and I walked like half the time since I haven't gone running consistently for the past 3 weeks since all the burdensome projects. Now most of the projects are done and truthfully I think I screwed a lot of it up. So now I can only hope for the best.

After running club was cca and I was just really mad at the fact I couldn't blow the high notes so I'm just frustrated at why I can't do things right and why am I failing at life. Is it because of my sickness? It's the second week already and I'm still not fully well. I hate my health. It's all that stress that's putting this on me so next semester I'm not gonna have a certain person in my groups or else I'm gonna just violently puke blood everywhere and get admitted to the hospital and defer a semester. Serious.

I have no idea about what I should do in this point of time. My head just hurts now so I should just go sleep. It's already the official month of exams and woah time flies... I should be feeling really stressed but I'm still like calm and chill so idk. Should really start studying soon I guess.

I am still sad cos I have no money. No concert. No infinite. No happiness. No after exam reward.

Cries. Frustrated arm flailing and kicking of feet. More crying. 

Sorry for being such a whiny piece of shit. 

(i just made myself feel worse. )