我是誰 你是否常常這樣問自己
我是誰 總是活在別人的期望里
我是誰 是誰又擅自幫你定義了
你是誰 只有不是自己才安全
為什么 你以為這個世界很美麗
為什么 你愛這個世界胜過愛自己
為什么 這個世界不給你平等待遇
為什么 到底做錯了什么
朋友都說你太 太 太奇怪
在背后把你當成笑 笑 笑話看
每一個動作都被瞎猜
他們說你是個不能容忍的存在
你想要的很 很 很簡單
不過就是最普通的 的 的平凡
誠實做自己有時候很難
但是請你勇敢的試一次看看
無論他們又說什么
閒言閒語無法傷害我
世界上只有一個我 沒人能代替的我
無論他們又做什么 小動作無法打敗我
我知道自己是最美麗的
The most
beautiful
會不會 上帝把你的靈魂放錯了身体
會不會 是故意整你不是不小心
會不會 你常常都覺得力不從心
會不會 堅持要做自己太危險
憑什么 難道比較特別就是不對
憑什么 先下了批注在認識之前
憑什么 只不過想認真的活一遍
憑什么 隨便就把人定罪
我是誰 這個問題困扰你多少天多少夜
我是誰 誰有資格決定你怎樣才是對
我是誰 我是誰我是誰
我就是我你就是你
認真做自己的人最美麗
I think this song really speaks a lot.
Apr 24, 2014
Apr 21, 2014
This pain is killing me.
Day 3 of the most agonizing pain ever.
I haven't slept well for the past 3 days already and I feel like i'm going to break down.
This pain just get worse everyday and I just took like 3 panadol pills (Which is like way over the recommended dosage but I don't care.) This pain is causing me so much hell I've got this terrible headache and I feel like i'm going to get brain damage if it doesn't go away. Even crying doesn't make me feel better okay it is THIS shitty.
I need the dentist urgently but the whole week is so packed not to mention I have like CCA recruitment coming and 3 days of CCA practice. Blowing the dizi with a toothache is no joke. Now when I'm not doing anything the ache is already so painful and I feel like I'm going to pass out and I'm getting like cold sweat and chills and not to mention my hands are shaking. How am I going to go for CCA recruitment. If I tell the upper ups I'm having a toothache and can't go for the CCA thingy I'm going to get grilled and probably kicked out FOREVER. But they do not understand this pain. They do not understand my dilemma. And they might probably think I'm faking a shitty excuse to just get out of performing. Its just a badly timed toothache. I HATE YOU, TOOTH, FOR GIVING ME SO MUCH HELL.
I tried using whiskey to swish away the pain but it just dulls the pain for like 3 minutes AND THE PAIN COMES BACK. And i'm getting a terrible headache and the smell of whiskey is just awful and making my headache worse. I've tried all sorts of shit to banish the pain but it still hurts. I guess saltwater was the best but I tried it with like hot water at work just now and I felt like a dagger was being stabbed through my jaw. I guess after that I used room temp water and it worked. JUST FOR A WHILE. I'm gonna swish some saltwater in my mouth later before sleep so I can at least get some sleep before I wake up again. Actually I wish I could just pass out right now so I can get some sleep before school tomorrow.
I'm in a really grumpy mood right now (Note all the "shit" I used in this post) and I guess it'll probably worsen tomorrow. I'm freaking hungry now because I didn't eat much today since I was so bothered by my tooth. I have to conclude that the two worst feelings in the world are hunger and toothache.
I haven't slept well for the past 3 days already and I feel like i'm going to break down.
This pain just get worse everyday and I just took like 3 panadol pills (Which is like way over the recommended dosage but I don't care.) This pain is causing me so much hell I've got this terrible headache and I feel like i'm going to get brain damage if it doesn't go away. Even crying doesn't make me feel better okay it is THIS shitty.
I need the dentist urgently but the whole week is so packed not to mention I have like CCA recruitment coming and 3 days of CCA practice. Blowing the dizi with a toothache is no joke. Now when I'm not doing anything the ache is already so painful and I feel like I'm going to pass out and I'm getting like cold sweat and chills and not to mention my hands are shaking. How am I going to go for CCA recruitment. If I tell the upper ups I'm having a toothache and can't go for the CCA thingy I'm going to get grilled and probably kicked out FOREVER. But they do not understand this pain. They do not understand my dilemma. And they might probably think I'm faking a shitty excuse to just get out of performing. Its just a badly timed toothache. I HATE YOU, TOOTH, FOR GIVING ME SO MUCH HELL.
I tried using whiskey to swish away the pain but it just dulls the pain for like 3 minutes AND THE PAIN COMES BACK. And i'm getting a terrible headache and the smell of whiskey is just awful and making my headache worse. I've tried all sorts of shit to banish the pain but it still hurts. I guess saltwater was the best but I tried it with like hot water at work just now and I felt like a dagger was being stabbed through my jaw. I guess after that I used room temp water and it worked. JUST FOR A WHILE. I'm gonna swish some saltwater in my mouth later before sleep so I can at least get some sleep before I wake up again. Actually I wish I could just pass out right now so I can get some sleep before school tomorrow.
I'm in a really grumpy mood right now (Note all the "shit" I used in this post) and I guess it'll probably worsen tomorrow. I'm freaking hungry now because I didn't eat much today since I was so bothered by my tooth. I have to conclude that the two worst feelings in the world are hunger and toothache.
Apr 19, 2014
Toothache
How can toothaches hurt this much.
Half my head feels numb.
I'm having blurry vision.
I don't even know which teeth the pain is coming from because my whole jaw just hurts.
How am I going to survive a week in school like this ):
Half my head feels numb.
I'm having blurry vision.
I don't even know which teeth the pain is coming from because my whole jaw just hurts.
How am I going to survive a week in school like this ):
Apr 14, 2014
Apr 3, 2014
Semester 2.1
I'm having really mixed feelings about the upcoming semester.
Its really sad how my whole class is like freaking split up including like all my friends and all that shit. WHY CHANGE CLASS WHY. Although maybe i have to be thankful at least I know people that are still in the same class (Like 2 only but whatever.) and at least they're not the group of people I'm freaking awkward with. I guess there are pros and cons of switching classes so I'm gonna accept the change of class/atmosphere and hope for the better. I hope everyone in 04 will be like people I can actually talk to nicely without them like being snobbish or irritating or anything I find irksome. I'm pretty sad I'm split up with the gayz but I guess some things can't be helped. We're still gonna see each other during lectures and I'm going to see Joey during CCA so that's still great. Its not like I'm leaving to a faraway land or that we'll never see each other again since we're in the same school and much more, the same course. Maybe this time when we change class its really a test of how everyone can manage their friendships even though we don't see each other as often any more. (I'm sure I'm not the only one being split up with their friends so yeah..)
Maybe I'm more worried for my projects and stuff since I'm thrown in a new environment so I'll have to cross my fingers for friendly and great project mates. Everyone is in this course to do well I guess? So everyone should be more serious towards their projects since its like year 2? (I SURE HOPEEE SO)
I'm quite clueless about who's in my class next semester so I guess its going to be a surprise (Pleasant one I hope.) when school starts in late april. Even if I end up in a bad class I'm gonna rant and be annoyed but after that I'll have to get over it and comfort myself that at least in year 3 I'm gonna be in a different class. Good thing I'm still in 04 at least I won't have to remember that I'm in some other class than 04. After all its not that bad although I might have to struggle with my socially awkward ways again and hope that nobody hates me and wants to make my year 2 life hell.
I really dislike changes but sometimes the change might be for the better. Life still goes on.
On a side note, I really will miss my year 1 class like super lots and lots and lots so I hope we have BBQs often and still stay close :,) (Pardon my gay-ness.)
Its really sad how my whole class is like freaking split up including like all my friends and all that shit. WHY CHANGE CLASS WHY. Although maybe i have to be thankful at least I know people that are still in the same class (Like 2 only but whatever.) and at least they're not the group of people I'm freaking awkward with. I guess there are pros and cons of switching classes so I'm gonna accept the change of class/atmosphere and hope for the better. I hope everyone in 04 will be like people I can actually talk to nicely without them like being snobbish or irritating or anything I find irksome. I'm pretty sad I'm split up with the gayz but I guess some things can't be helped. We're still gonna see each other during lectures and I'm going to see Joey during CCA so that's still great. Its not like I'm leaving to a faraway land or that we'll never see each other again since we're in the same school and much more, the same course. Maybe this time when we change class its really a test of how everyone can manage their friendships even though we don't see each other as often any more. (I'm sure I'm not the only one being split up with their friends so yeah..)
Maybe I'm more worried for my projects and stuff since I'm thrown in a new environment so I'll have to cross my fingers for friendly and great project mates. Everyone is in this course to do well I guess? So everyone should be more serious towards their projects since its like year 2? (I SURE HOPEEE SO)
I'm quite clueless about who's in my class next semester so I guess its going to be a surprise (Pleasant one I hope.) when school starts in late april. Even if I end up in a bad class I'm gonna rant and be annoyed but after that I'll have to get over it and comfort myself that at least in year 3 I'm gonna be in a different class. Good thing I'm still in 04 at least I won't have to remember that I'm in some other class than 04. After all its not that bad although I might have to struggle with my socially awkward ways again and hope that nobody hates me and wants to make my year 2 life hell.
I really dislike changes but sometimes the change might be for the better. Life still goes on.
On a side note, I really will miss my year 1 class like super lots and lots and lots so I hope we have BBQs often and still stay close :,) (Pardon my gay-ness.)
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