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Haven't blogged in a while since dumb me forgot my password. -_- Such a fail sometimes. I had to try like so many passwords and I couldn't even remember which gmail account this blog is linked under.

ANYWAYS I FINALLY LOGGED IN WHOOPIES.

Basically the past week I've been busy *ahem* studying. Maybe not like the hardcore "lock myself up in a room and study until I have no idea whether it is day or night" but well yeah, enough studying to finish the whole LSM Syllabus and MicroEcons syllabus by today. Haven't even touched my exam papers sighhhh. Slow progress but I guess I'm getting there. Procrastinated a lot and sacrificed A LOT of sleep. Basically because I study better between 12mn and 3am in the wee hours of the morning. I was so shocked when I looked into the mirror this morning while washing my face because of my deadly dark eye circles and bloodshot eyes ): Staying at home for so many days makes me feel so unhealthy because I keep snacking and SLACKING. I really wanted to get out of the house to study at Starbucks but I was saving up to get my hoodie. (I FINALLY DID OMG CAN'T WAIT COS I'M TOO EXCITEDDDDDD) I've been spending money like water just sitting at home through the computer so I feel guilty so I survived with instant coffee instead of CBTL or Starbucks. Spent like 150 dollars just sitting at home within a span of 2 days >:

Well I started watching dramas yesterday night since I felt like slacking after a day of study. (I know I shouldn't have...) But yeah I realised I managed to marathon 10 episodes since yesterday night. ALL THAT TIME I HAVE BEEN WASTING GOSHHHH. But well now I shall accept reality since I cannot get back the 10 hours I lost... I need to persevere and get through this hellish week.

I think I'm going crazy since I'm inhaling so much secondhand smoke from the asshole downstairs. I close the windows every night just not to smell your smoke and sometimes I wake up at 3am smelling the smoke in my room. FUCKING HELL DO YOU EVEN SLEEP OR YOU JUST SMOKE ALL YOUR MONEY AWAY. Last time it felt like hell when both the top units and bottom units were heavy smokers. My house smelt like a smoking zone EVERY SINGLE DAY. I don't really care if you smoke but I guess you don't even have the decency to smoke at the corridor BUT AFFECT EVERYONE. I feel like I get paranoid or OCD i don't even know the exact term but nowadays when I'm at home alone I close all the windows because when the windows are open I get very uneasy.

Enough of ranting and I shall get back to work since its approaching my optimum studying time.

Angst

"Angst denotes the constant struggle one has with the burdens of life that weighs on the dispossessed and not knowing when the salvation will appear."

Yep. This is the exact feeling I'm feeling currently. Trying to save myself by attempting to solve my problems one by one and I guess its working out (?) Although it seems like its gonna be a long and tough journey but I'm trying and I hope I manage to straighten everything out. 

Feeling guilty for not touching my books when apparently everyone has started studying already. #notme

Well okay lets talk about today. I went to work (YES I WORK TOO OFTEN I KNOW) Everyone is nagging at me for working too much and I know I shouldn't but I can't just stop suddenly (I'm really gonna be a workaholic in the future I can sense it already) Well today was super busy and I actually perspired a lot since I was running around so much. But highlight of the day was this bitchy woman gosh. (Why do I keep meeting bitchy women omg first the taxi stealer now this bitchy woman) I took the order for that table and even repeated everything and I GOT CONFIRMATION THAT IT WAS RIGHT OKAY. Well behold because I actually left out an order because (1) I guess Ms Little Bitch was scrolling too much on instagram to even care whether i read her order. (2) Well I guess you were thirsty because you only bothered to ask for ice water. Luckily I even rechecked your bill and even printed the damn thing and put it on your table but well I guess Instagram's more important than food or checking your order. When you didn't get your order I guess you only knew how to push the blame to other people. I even apologised and had to take so much shit with all the spiteful remarks you made. Final straw when you and your friends asked me to refill water and you started glaring at your friend and your friend was like "Wow you shouldn't be glaring at me, right?" HAHA do you think I would have been such a punching bag and took in anymore of your shit. I guess not. I made the best choice ever by looking you in the eye and asking you if you enjoyed talking behind people's backs and who's fault do you think it was when I even took the trouble to check the orders again with everyone. I know I shouldn't be treating a customer like that but I guess you went overboard when you sarcastically remarked that the service was bad and how could I miss out on your order. Wow great. Thanks for realizing your order hasn't arrived when I thought you would be full from scrolling through instagram and mindlessly liking photos. ALL OF US WERE RUSHING AROUND THE WHOLE PLACE COS THERE WERE TOO MANY PEOPLE. The kitchen staff were such assholes already the only thing they could do was like take their time while all of us "small fry" had to get scolded by the customers because the food was taking close to an hour to arrive. It isn't even our fault please because we're not even the ones cooking. Anyways the look on your face was priceless when I told you that because you left in anger without your food so LOL. Even my manager didn't side with you and actually raged at you guys because you really went overboard. Fancy the pot calling the kettle black.

I was really out of sorts today so I had to thank the caramel macchiato I had during my breaktime.
Studying officially starts tomorrow after work!!! More coffee and more brain cells please and thank you.

Commemoration of V-Day

Lagger as always cos its 15/2/2014 already.

It was a well spent day since I gave chocolates to loads of people. I received lots of things in return too but some of them are in my stomach already so I couldn't post any pics HAHA. I guess the highlight of the day was basically lunch with the gayest friends on earth and dinner at Joey's house (Yep me only cos Beilin the pangseh-er in action againnnn. Okay jk hahaha I know she didn't mean to pangseh.) So thankful of all the brilliant friends I have :D So there, I shall end my day with sleep.

:/

Heading out for some Margherita Pizza and Mojito since I've been having quite a shitty week/CNY. Haven't even gotten my pay yet and here I am spending my money already. Its only the middle of the week and I'm going out till late since I don't need to reach school by 9am tmr since no CDS whoop. Sigh what is important is hopefully I unshitty my week/CNY. Such a weird day to hangout haha cos originally it was on Sunday since the music at Wala is good on Sundays but well Sunday is for studying since I'm screwing up all my assessments. Yay for late school and I'll have to limit myself to just 1 drink or not I'm gonna feel worse for the rest of this week or be broke and eat grass for the rest of the week. I shall leave the house now before I procrastinate any further or else I'm gonna be late.

Woes

My eyes are burning.
I just want to sleep forever and forget I even exist.
Nothing seems easy anymore.
My whole life seems to be sliding downhill and I don't even know how I can make it right again.

Finally

Finally done with most of my projects. It's like finally I can close my eyes in peace and get a good night's rest. I finally have some time to spare to do my own stuff without feeling like I actually need to do my project. So much of the word finally in my sentences. Pretty much satisfied that at least the hard projects are over and only sociology quiz, SDL Worksheet and legal opinion is left. Project deadlines also signify that my exams are coming soon so I should start studying.

It's been a while since I've skyped with the Fabsapiens ( Our slang for fabulous humans lolol). Everyone has been busy with their own things and we haven't had all 5 of us present in our Skype sessions in a long time. Today was good since everyone was free yay. Although I was late cos I had to work. (Today was no joke people just kept coming.) When I got home I was also utterly drained. But it was worth storing away my fatigue I guess. All of us started ranting about stupid people in our life we just want to destroy and eye candies and our feelings and v-day lol. The amount of eye candies Derek and Theresa have are seriously uncountable. (Now I've exposed themmm.) As always it was always just me and shifu left since the time zone in London is different hahaha and I sleep at weird times. It was a good ranting session since there has been lots of things going on recently. I should be thankful someone even bothers to listen to my crap and anger and sadness.

I feel bad but I made him watch THIS IS INFINITE with me to lighten up our serious talk mode HAHAHAHA. Then the whole call was just excited me talking gibberish and laughing to myself. It was a really good reward I gave myself after all that project rushing. I swear that period was one of the worst periods of my whole school life. I was pretty disappointed with the show since it didn't grab my attention and I had to replay a lot of parts to catch what they were saying since I zoned out. Shifu said it was good though but frankly I think it was because of all the digs they made at each other and mini CG effects throughout the episode that he found interesting. It was funny but sometimes I felt it went too overboard lol. Maybe Ranking King was better since it had a particular concept to the whole show. I still didn't get the concept of the show after the first episode so I hope I get it after watching the next episode next week. I was kind of sad since I think Yeol went under the knife since his eyelid crease is more prominent now. Why did he do it ): I think he looked better previously though. But even if he really went under the knife, it would be his own decision so welllll I have nothing to say.

Basically I'm so tired my eyelids are closing while I'm typing this so I shall go sleep. Joey will be coming over later hahaha then we will be going over to her house for buffet yayyyy. Good food alert~~ I should sleep or not tmr I oversleep then GG. So excites HAHAHA.

Chinese New Year

What kind of CNY is this. I'm just spending most of my time on my bed, the couch or in the kitchen. I've been lying down and Eating soup and vegetables for the past 2 days. T.T I feel so horrible even at this time of the night and I want to puke all my insides out ): 

Okay but at least I'm feeling much better since yesterday and the day before. I hope I get to eat some proper food soon... I have work later on so hopefully I get through this ordeal by tonight and puke everything out and clear my intestines of everything.

Enough of the puke. I shall rest now since I'm still super tired after sleeping practically the whole of my first 2 days of CNY away. God bless my poor stomach. Wow thinking about it I haven't done any serious work since I got this stupid food poisoning. I want to poison myself.

Bad things aside. I hope everyone has a nice chinese new year and receive lots of angpows and eat lots of good food. Remember to take note of what you eat and don't end up like me. :) I'm still pretty satisfied this year even though I received like two angpows from my dad and mum only since I didn't go back to Malaysia. I heard they ate their reunion dinner at a good restaurant and well... I wanted to be there too ): too bad the great project load is tying me down and I don't have time to go back since its so rushed and what not. My parents seriously do make it up for me and my brother by packing angpows with really good figures to make up for the angpows we failed to get. I really do appreciate that. I hope next year will be better. 

恭喜发财，马年行大运!! :D 🍊🍊