Next frustration will be getting back my case summary tomorrow. I is scared ); very worried and very scared. If I fail, this is the end of my A for lcomm and I can just go slam my head on the wall cos 1.1 is the easiest to score and I screw it all up. Macroecons confirm die then Pom if the teacher marking my paper isn't lenient then I will die too. So I will get like 2.0 gpa and I might as well repeat the whole semester.
Okay today I went running like finally for running club. Went together with Joey, Hillary, Beilin and Elysia ! My stamina was sucky and I walked like half the time since I haven't gone running consistently for the past 3 weeks since all the burdensome projects. Now most of the projects are done and truthfully I think I screwed a lot of it up. So now I can only hope for the best.
After running club was cca and I was just really mad at the fact I couldn't blow the high notes so I'm just frustrated at why I can't do things right and why am I failing at life. Is it because of my sickness? It's the second week already and I'm still not fully well. I hate my health. It's all that stress that's putting this on me so next semester I'm not gonna have a certain person in my groups or else I'm gonna just violently puke blood everywhere and get admitted to the hospital and defer a semester. Serious.
I have no idea about what I should do in this point of time. My head just hurts now so I should just go sleep. It's already the official month of exams and woah time flies... I should be feeling really stressed but I'm still like calm and chill so idk. Should really start studying soon I guess.
I am still sad cos I have no money. No concert. No infinite. No happiness. No after exam reward.
Cries. Frustrated arm flailing and kicking of feet. More crying.
Sorry for being such a whiny piece of shit.
(i just made myself feel worse. )
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