Rants and whatnot

Yesterday was seriously such a blog worthy day. Had a pretty shitty day cos we had to settle some pain in the ass issues urghh. So life is such a prick. Some people have to learn how to survive in this horrendous society. You know people won't like you if you act like that right. Pls la you not a hot commodity on the market okay we had to beg other people to take you cos we really cannot take all this anymore. I know I sound like an evil piece of shit right now but I don't really want to care anymore. I hate being launched in drama. People judge and I know cos some people may be unhappy why we're "throwing" you away when you're like our friend and all but ... *pulling hair out in frustration* Enuf ok enuf. One problem solved now another one. Maybe I should have just went overseas to study instead. I feel so distant from people sometimes is it because I unknowingly distant myself or I just seem like a disliked person or maybe it's just me. Sometimes I wonder if I am really happy or is it just a facade that has even deceived how I even perceive myself to be. Maybe it's just slight turbulence in my life now that's making me feel so weird. Anyways I feel I tried my best to be nice. Sometimes I hate how I always seem so double faced because I really hate hurting other peoples feelings and I cannot bring myself to say it in their faces. Is it even a good thing... Enough of all of this I shall be happy now. Thank you Infinite. Watching your music videos always make me feel better somehow and for that short 3 minutes or so I can grin like an idiot lol. Mid sem tests are next week. Really need to stop slacking already and get closer to my perfect 4. I feel motivated already. Blogging does help. ;)