I can say that I really improved through the course of the whole week. I guess insane practice did help after all. Although there were certain parts I still couldn't play but I could proudly say I tried playing the parts that I actually could play and the concert turned out great after all. Although there were certain glitches here and there as everyone was super nervous but it was still good!! It was so nerve-wrecking playing an instrument I wasn't even confident in front of a crowd but I still did it. I'm kind of glad inside I went for the concert (Cos I wasn't intending to go for this concert initially hahaha but certain circumstances forced me into the concert)
It felt like ages before when I actually performed in front of a crowd and that feeling still remains as amazing as ever. I'm probably more cut out for performing arts I guess hahaha although UG still was a pretty fun CCA through secondary school. The previous time I could vividly remember standing in front of a crowd was in primary school doing the yearly annual event reports thingy when I was so nervous I pronounced the word kudos wrongly. And how I stood by my own during drama night in sec 1 as the narrator when I had bad memory and I had to use a script plastered to the ground (I couldn't have any script in my hand...) cos the other narrators didn't have a script and I should be like them. Thinking about it, I had more chances the average person did in public speaking so I'm pretty thankful for that. Maybe I'm more stage material (Is it my voice? Is it how I don't appear very nervous?) I don't know but I don't know if people sense the quiver in my voice when I'm actually nervous and speak in public.
Anyways, it was a rewarding week since I've actually felt it was kind of fun going back to school for CO practice. Although it was VERY awkward at times since I have this antisocial habit that make people think I'm very cocky/ignorant/loner-like but its really not that way ): I've always been socially awkward ): Usually people have to talk to me first because I won't go around chatting with random people... And sometimes my normal face scares away people cos they think I'm like a grumpy asshole.
Back to my normal holiday routine of working and movie/drama marathon-ing. Whoop can't wait for sleepover hehe.
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