exists.
Our mind is such a complicated thing isn't it.
Looking at the possibilities that things might change.
That things may not turn out right.
It is not hurt we feel but the painful fear of loss that sears at your heart.
Having bad dreams lately. Not exactly the scary type of bad dreams that leave you drenched in cold sweat. Its something far more twisted... I force myself to wake up but I'm too tired to do so. Probably the worst feeling ever. I can't even remember what kind of dreams are they cos I forget in a matter of seconds after I wake up. I just know my heart thumps real quickly after I wake up in an ominous kind of way.
There is a long howl echoing around the house because its raining. I am caught between the thought of liking rainy days and disliking them. The bad thing about when it rains my joints start to hurt. Its the sharp kind of pain and I absolutely hate it. (I sound like an old person, don't I?) The good thing about when it rains I feel calmer and the coolness of the air straightens my mind up and I don't go around blabbering shit like I always do. There are so many things which I can't choose whether to like or dislike because I can't help it. Things such as people. Ahh the complicated human mind.
"어두 컴컴해 보이지 않아
손 뻗었지만 바람만 부딪혀와
왠지 모르게 낯선 이곳
초라함에 익숙해지네
그림자처럼 지내 "
When you live in a world like that, the only way to go on is to depend on yourself.
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