Horrible

Deleting all of this frustration.
My insides feel like they are self destructing and I feel like puking.
All the coffee is just making my insides hurt more.
Its like keeping me alive artificially.
Guess what I might not actually be awake.
I need to hang on.
After all a few more hours and I'll be free.

*Laughs sarcastically at myself*
I chose this.
I chose the hard way.

Why is the report lacking in so many areas. I really have no idea where to start from. Tried my best to clear up the messy formatting and wording. It still looks barely completed and I think I'm going to stay awake the whole of tmr since I have CCA till like 10pm and god knows how I'm gonna end up like on Wednesday morning. I'm probably going to get scolded by my doctor for not cherishing my health but what can I do? Grades are equally as important and I cannot understand how people treat grades so lightly.
Whatever we do we must try our best in right? Haven't anyone told you how important that is? Trying your best?
Well, I guess not.

This is why I really dislike projects. Especially so if you feel like the only one fighting for an A and the rest are laid back just waiting. Waiting for an A to drop from the sky. I hate how I'm really so done with every single shit but I cant flip on the group and just go to sleep no matter how tired I am.

Its a battle I'm fighting alone.