Frankly speaking i haven't made any new year resolution(s). Maybe all along I haven't been making any but well yeah maybe I've had just that I haven't taken the effort to take it down and put it up somewhere obvious.
Last year I was pretty much crashing around blindly as I didn't even care about making any kind of goal I had to reach. Well I still had like 3 months before Poly started what do you expect?
The year flashed past. SERIOUSLY IT DID. I am still living in last year I admit. It's a bit hard for me to accept I'm going to be year 2 in like maybe 3 or 4 months and changing classes T.T
Well to sum up last year...
I entered poly, made a bunch of awesome friends, met up with my other friends and well that's pretty much the highlight. My gpa wasn't something I exactly expected but probably something I deserved for slacking half my year away. And to all the people that look upon me as mugger. I don't even like the idea of studying. I just study because I feel that if I don't I would fail the expectations my parents have of me okay maybe just the expectations I have of myself. Maybe they don't have high expectations of me but ok I have high expectations of myself. Seriously sometimes I think my parents arent all about results I guess cos they are just like if you think you did well then yeah you did. But I realised I'm just never satisfied with my achievements so that's just causing extra stress to myself. They probably realised too. I rarely ever let my emotions control my actions but when it comes to expectations of myself and me not being up to standard. I get emotional and distant. I can just stone for the whole day thinking what the hell exactly went wrong. The answer is pretty obvious. I just didn't try hard enough. Every time. The answer is always the same. I guess my resolution has to be something to improve and change the effort I put in to do things. That's step one to my awesome resolutions for 2014.
I really hope this year would be better. I need a more positive mindset this year to positively influence the people around me. I'm putting down all the burdens all the sadness all the troubles I've experienced and all the negative feelings and starting afresh. I'm glad and grateful to everyone that had made such a positive impact on my life and I hope they continue to do so. I hope I am at least in the most minor way at least a positive impact on them too.
4th year of being an Inspirit and 3rd year of being a BBC. Well they've brought me far too. Teaching me that hard work will ultimately lead to success and recognition. How I've gained so many tumblr friends I could talk to with similar interests and the amount of days just being on tumblr could change my bad mood to a good one. Hours of entertainment. Hours I spent laughing over one stupid gif. Priceless. I hope these last and I'll still have many years like this. NOT TO MENTION THE CONCERT I ABSOLUTELY AM GOING TO GO REGARDLESS WHATEVER. And preparing myself to spend more money on albums so at least I have something nice to put on my HIGHDEF speakers when I go overseas to study and feel like relaxing with coffee. (don't mind me daydreaming.) I guess Woolim and seven seasons is just going to get richer while I get poorer...
I've brought pretty awesome things and people and memories from 2013 into 2014. (Like ahem ahem argon ahem) <- Its a secret don't bother asking and only one other person knows so LOL not like anyone would be interested. Basically I wish all things good become better and all things bad just go away and mind their own little business.
I've actually thought of listing down the names of everyone that I am grateful for the previous year but I'm worried about missing out on names so hmm better not HAHA not to mention its kinda awkward.
I'm kind of surprised how I even get like 1100+ views since last year on this weird blog like excuse me if you know me I'm actually pretty weird and not to mention, gay (not in that way). Well here's to all those people secretly (okay maybe openly) reading my blog and my stupid and vague and weird and raging and boring posts, thanks for sticking around! I most likely know who you are cos those reading probably do know me HAHAHA or maybe I don't know you hmmmmm. I don't even know who sticks around or if there is anyone that does that and yes I mean YOU. Thanks for at least reading till the end of this SUPER LONG post. If there isn't anyone that actually sticks around man this is really embarassing but okay forget it cos there are more embarassing things I've done and this pales in comparison.
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