1000th

I'm so surprised this blog has hit 1000 page views. I started the counter maybe earlier this year so I didn't expect it to hit 1000 so quickly. Maybe all those 1000 views were contributed by me or just random people blogwalking.

I think it was a moment of insanity when I posted my blog URL on twitter. Its so open sometimes I feel intimidated like people might read about me and be like Oh this girl trying to seek attention. Frankly speaking I don't really care. As long as your comments don't get to my ears, its fine. Say what you want cos anyway I don't know about it.

I think only the people that bother reading my posts regularly actually do have interest in knowing some things I only post up exclusively in my blog. They're probably judging too. I'm not saying that its bad.

Its only this year that I've started posting like deep stuff because mere words cannot express these emotions suppressed inside. Its been really confusing and sometimes I feel I am losing myself. Many things are happening and I'm forced to take sides. But the thing is, I can't. No matter how everyone is like Eww you just want to get the best of both worlds right. I don't deny this. Everyone is selfish in their own little ways and I can say I am selfish because all I want is unicorns and rainbows and happiness. This is probably why most of the time I'm just kicked to the pavement and left alone because everyone feels I'm not on their side.