Once in a while

It feels like I don't know you any more.
Everyone has changed.
Have I ... changed?
I really don't know anymore.

The white washed walls.
I keep walking into the tunnel.
The warmth.
Its beckoning me.
Something awaits at the end.

Heartlessly.
The string is cut.
I try to mend it.
But its too tangled with the others.

The passage of time may fade memories.
But they never truly disappear.
A mere whisper brings out the memories so carefully concealed.
Even those memories I never wanted to recall.
That I wanted to hide inside this heavily guarded closet.

I'm tired.
So worn out.
Sleep doesn't help anymore.
We should be careful of the world we enter when sleep takes over.
Harmless it may seem but so very dangerous.
Every night its a battle.
Every morning the battle is won.
Many injuries, scars, deaths.
Countless.

My brain is blacking out. Its been such a tiring week. Haven't slept proper in such a long time. I need my long bedtime conversations ): This workload is a total obstacle. Everyone is so busy I guess nobody really stops for a break.

This tinge of sadness I cannot decipher. The words that linger but I still cannot understand. Can I just pretend I didn't hear anything? Can we just go back to before? Please?

I'm sorry.
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Well I have no idea is it this aura I have or what. Do I seem hostile? Maybe I do seem like it because I don't know how to pull off forced words of exchange. I need enlightenment on how I should continue on.
Avoidance. It happens. But why?