Terribly hungry but I just brushed my teeth. Sigh so I should drink water and forget I'm hungry.
Today I got scolded by a lot of people. I don't know but it just seems like today it was like that.
LPB scolded me for clarifying my doubts for the conclusion part. She said I totally did not understand what was a conclusion. Well, okay I get it. I really didn't understand what I was doing anyways. She hasn't been the best of help when we needed her to guide us. Currently I'm clueless as to what I have learnt. Read all the tort notes but my brain is still a whitewashed wall. Got scolded by the dishwasher auntie for eating too slow ): Sorry la I stuff all the food in my mouth and like gulp everything down why you still so angry. She totally came out to look at me every 30 seconds or so just to see whether I was done. I took 15 minutes to finish my pork chop and potato salad. Round of applause I think I broke my fastest record of eating.
Sometimes I also don't want to be so slow in doing things and the thing is I don't like being rushed as well. I seriously think I'm not suited to live in Singapore. Well I usually get left behind and this saddens me a lot. Like usually when I pack my bag I have no idea why everyone does it so quickly and leaves and I'm just like what just happened did everyone just leave and left me here. Of course there are exceptions when people wait for me and sometimes like I feel really happy that well at least someone bothered to wait for me. I think I'm weird haha cos weird things make me happy.
At work today I also got scolded by customers cos the food was slow in getting served. Well I'm used to all that already so hahahaha I just go and bother the chefs about the food and ask them to hurry up before the customers flare up. I never knew people could be so petty hahaha sometimes I'm just surprised when customers wait for like 15 minutes and get mad. Well there are loads of different people out there and sometimes thinking about the experiences with a certain few amuse me for a moment. (Not in a sarcastic way.)
But today was generally alright. I guess the happy things outweighed the unhappy things. LPB COMPLIMENTED MY OUTLINE LIKE WHOOP. It was in her terrible handwriting but still WHOOP. I need to laminate it. Hard work yields results :> Thank you Azeera for helping me print and submit to her hehehehehe cos without your help it would have been a late assignment and she would probably rip it in front of my face. And I have no idea whether its a grumpy face or smiley face.
Listening to Nickelback's "Photograph". Its a great song about memories. Something I treasure a lot. Sometimes when people lose relationships they treasure a lot, its often the memories that are left behind. Its something that even if you wanted to you couldn't erase. Aren't memories beautiful? The memory of once being so happy in the presence of each other. How the littlest of things matter the most. I still remember this primary school friend I had. We took the school bus to school and home together. I still remember this little game she taught me and we always played it on the bus. I even still remember how she looks like. Although I can't really remember her name any more. The memories still stay. Its been a whole 10 years. I wonder if she still remembers me? I still remember the people that used to bully me in primary school. Those weren't good memories at all but I still remember. How I would get my wallet thrown in the drain. How they would tease me about my surname. How they would kick plastic bottles at me. I had to spend my time in this dark corridor which all the CCA rooms were in my primary school everyday during recess just to avoid them.
I'm a person that gets easily forgotten so I don't expect a lot from people. I don't expect them to remember me, or even acknowledge that I was once part of their lives. But I just am glad that all these memories still exist, at least for myself. I guess the earlier part of my life was kind of dark and maybe sad and sometimes I dislike talking about it cos I might tear up. Maybe that's why I feel so socially awkward sometimes.
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